| Exodus |
[31 Aug 2009|07:08pm] |
Moving is such an exhausting and uncool process.
I can't believe how much stuff I jammed into our apartment and how much I have collected over t his past year from my treasure hunts at value village. I am moving in with a friend who is currently renovating her kitchen so our combined messes are filling up her living room/dining room area.
While we were moving the weird dude that lives upstairs' wife came down and gave me a bunch of heavy metal records. I feel like I am destined to start listening to heavy metal after I read that book Lords of Chaos and started to get interested in it, and this only furthers that belief. I also dropped off a six-pack in front of their door to thank them for the records and all the times Dwight, the creepy caretaker of our house, has to clean up after one of my parties and the noise without barely any complaints. I will really miss that place though. It so felt like home and I love that area. It will be hard not living so close to places or people I like.
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| Dropping a load |
[18 Aug 2009|04:07pm] |
Moving is a pain. Realizing how much stuff you have is both exciting when you rediscover something precious you might have forgotten and depressing when you realize all the useless THINGS you own. Other people's discards are definitely my treasures. However, I am feeling a deep need to get rid of things and lighten the load so to speak.
On a positive note, the best thing about being a bum like I have been pretty much all summer is that I am too broke to shop very much for clothing, which I already have a lot of anyways. However, I am happy to note that when it has come down to it I'd rather spend my little money on new music and having a drink or doing something with friends than spending it on more clothing that I am gonna get tired of or will eventually fall apart. This is a big deal to me because I love clothes. Anyone that has come to a party at my house will see me change outfits over the course of the night at least once, if not more. I think that is more because I love playing dress-up. But yeah...Needing to simplify and streamline my material existence also forces me to think about streamlining life in general and what is important to me right now.
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| the party |
[16 Aug 2009|09:06pm] |
Went to a lovely party last night at a lovely house, that I wish I was moving into because it is inexpensive and full of character. It also seems to house good people. I am really going to miss living downtown. The party was a house show and we sat on the lawn drinking wine and listening to music through the window talking to various people in various stages of drunkenness. This was one of many house shows/parties that have occurred this summer around these parts and there are a few more going on before the summer is over. I really like house shows. They are cheap (read:free) at least most of the time and almost always have an intimate feel. I also like how the music can occur in unusual spaces. I know people eventually grow out of these things and I am very close to that age/stage in life, but I wish that wouldn't happen.
I am starting to work on the next edition of the New Harbours zine for our series in September. I really need a scanner so I can scan the old issues to have a digital copy. I am working on writing about some cool local artists that are not quite regulars in the hip galleries around the city but are more involved in the network I've people I've been in contact with through musical happenings and what not.
Nothing much else new, except preparing to move out of my lovely apartment and in with my friend to the other side of town and the burbs.
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| new directions |
[15 Aug 2009|04:02am] |
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I've decided to make my journal public again.
All of old. Nothing else ever. Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better. - Samuel Beckett
I feel like I have been making a lot of mistakes and bad choices, but I am learning not to regret them anymore. I'm not perfect, nor should I strive to be. I can be better though, and sometimes life requires us to fuck up every once in a while in order to learn not to make the same mistake twice or even several times. My only goal is to be happy and content with who I am and where I am in life and hope for some level of certainty about where I'm going and what I'm doing. I've been so caught up in looking for approval and acceptance but I realize that it's not really about other people, it's about accepting myself. When you are actually living you don't really have the chance to worry or analyze every detail. So, I am gonna hopefully start to really live again.
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[12 Jan 2009|11:13pm] |
Sometimes I think there is something wrong with me emotionally. I am worried I am not going to be able to feel anything for someone no matter if I like them or not. I just feel numb and resentful still. How do people get over things so fast? I feel rediculous.
Anyway, things have been okay. I am taking this creative writing seminar where we have to read our work OUT LOUD in front of everyone, and then shut up while they discuss. This makes me nervous. I don't want to worry what people think if I like what I've done. That's generally my rule for life. So it's gonna be weird. I don't like school that much lately. I'm just happy I got some money so I can buy records again. I am happy to have some new stuff to listen to.
I have been obsessed with 30 Rock and Ketchup chips (which never liked until recently), sometimes enjoyed together. I am still reading five books at once, and wearing the wrong glasses, but at least I am not always squiting. Anyway..I finally found all the components of my digital camera, so I took some pictures of chez moi since some people wanted to know what it looked like and some haven't visited me here yet.
( clicky (big photos, beware!) )
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| leaving |
[18 Dec 2007|07:35pm] |
So everything is pretty much set for my departure to Denmark. One of the last things I had to do was actually buy my plan ticket, which is now complete. I was aiming to leave Jan 2, however some mix up occured and I had to book it for Jan 1! Jeremy is kind of bummed cause we thought we'd get to spend that day together. I'm kind of bummed about it too, but then I am gone for 6 months so leaving a day earlier isn't a huge difference. It's more psychological I guess.
I'm going to be living here:Tietgan Kollegium
I'll have my own room and bathroom, and share a kitchen with 12 other people, mostly Danes.
I'm pretty excited, but mostly scared shitless. We'll see how its goes, but for now I am trying not to think about it too much cause it will probably hit me kind of hard. I'm looking forward to seeing more of Europe with Haley and possibly going to Tangiers in Morocco with Jeremy so we can pretend we are beats smoking kif and reading poetry. I'm mostly just happy to see something new, experience living on my own with nobody but me really to rely on. Jer and I keep getting comments about going without sex for that whole time, which is definetely kind of a big deal, but then again I'm sure I'll be too busy to think about that. It sounds cheesey, but mostly I think we'll just miss being around each other, driving each other nuts, sipping tea, talking about the world, music, and everything with someone that cares and understands us. I kind of worry about being lonely and not making friends with anyone, but then again there is going to be so much for me to see and do on my own, I don't think I'll really need anyboody. Plus there will be shows to see there, which will be good.
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| Shake Off Yer Flesh |
[31 May 2007|03:37pm] |
The summer thus far:
- No city job, no cfmu job, no job thus far. Must start the hunt! Being broke sucks.
- Sightings and Magik Markers
- Being sad about not going to No Fun
- Starting a new radio show on CFMU (Thursdays at 5 p.m. listen up!) to play rad tunes of my liking.
- Getting more excited for Denmark, gotta learn some dirty danish.
- Getting excited for Michigan at the end of the month for more awesome shows and hijinx in Americarrr
- Going to Ikea to get summer beach stuff so I can spend lots of time swimming, my passion
- Getting my bike back and riding it in the woods and being upset that trails are cut off by the crappy expressway being built
This summer is goin to be insane for shows. 16 bitch, GHQ and Charalambides, Sunburned Hand of the Man, and Boredoms...just to name a few! Also, Fossils have a lot of cool shows lined-up, like the Electric Eclectic Festival they are playing up north with fuckin Tony Conrad and Nihilst Spasm Band, as well as some Toronto folk. Should be fun. Maybe Montreal this summer as well in August. Fossils record split with Sick Llama coming out this summer maybe too. Sweet.
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| SIck motherfucker |
[15 Jan 2007|04:37pm] |
I am in a pretty damn disgusting state today, although I am not quite the snot fountain I was yesterday. Been sick since Thursday and the one day I plan to blow off school is the day we have some crazy ice storm and it gets cancelled. I guess that is convenient, but I wish I wasn't sick so I could go do something fun instead of watching Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, which is only kind of fun.
Yesterday I went to a babyshower for my cousin, so I took some cold stuff thinking I would be okay, but I spent the whole time sneezing and looking like shit, and everyone treated me like a leper. It was fun.
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| RIP Syd |
[11 Jul 2006|10:50am] |
Syd Barrett, one of the greatest musicians ever in my opnion, and co-founder of Pink Floyd, is dead. I can't tell you how sad I am about this.
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| bored at work |
[10 Jul 2006|01:15pm] |
This is seriously one of the creepiest/awesomest pictures I have ever seen. It makes me want to print this picture up and put in a frame so I can sit it on my desk and tell people this is my dad.
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| newsflash |
[04 Apr 2006|09:53pm] |
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I got a C- on an essay! How terrible is it that I am 24 and care so much about one bad grade? Very. I also think my eyes are getting even worse. GREAT!
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| sweet nothin' |
[20 Mar 2006|05:40pm] |
Today was one of those strange days I run into every once in awhile, where things actually seem to go for me, rather than against me. It was mostly good, except for frustration over my own vanity. Vanity is not a good thing, and makes you say foolish things in order to impress people. I hope I am usually not like that, but I guess it is difficult to stop yourself sometimes.
Among the good things today:
- For once, my nerdiness and love of Star Trek was rewarded with a free Ipod shuffle given to me during a guest lecturer from Bell, for answering a question about what the crew uses to talk to each other. I shouted "communicator!" Although it's cool, it's not something I would've bought for myself since I am not too keen on the fact they are everywhere and such a status symbol. But, I guess I am not above getting one for free. So I must be a slave to consumption like everyone else. Sidenote: One of the funny things about taking cultural studies is that it makes you aware of your own hypocracy, and a lot of time you still do nothing to stop yourself from taking part in it all. BUT I DIGRESS!
- Had a good interview (I think) for my Sil job. I've also applied to the campus radio station for the music director position. Either job would be great.
- A book I need for an essay came into the library for me today. I think I have about 15 books now.
- Someone actually recognized my Offensive Orange button, rather than just asking me why I am wearing a orange button with nothing on it.
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| life in general |
[05 Mar 2006|02:20am] |
I need to do something about these terrible eyes of mine. See an eye specialist, fix my glasses, and perhaps actually wear them?
Sometimes they feel like this:
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| Time for change |
[04 Nov 2005|03:01am] |
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I've had my old journal for years now and I feel like its time for a change. A new chapter. Hopefully this will be the start of something good.
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